Waiting for so long for someone it's feel like broken something from inside

I don't know why am I doing this

intjaar jo sayad srif mene kiya

vo mera intjaar tha

tumhare palatne ka intjaar kuch iss trh se

karti rhi ki tum vha anjaan iss baat se bekhabar hamare hone ka ehsaas tak nhi tha..... chlo

jaane do ye silsila yu khatm karte hai................

pta nhi kyu tumhare platne ka intjaar kar rhi thi......

pta nhi kyu tumhare palatne ka itne saalo se intzaar kar rhi thi...........

chlo khatm kar diya...

ki lo khatm kar diya ye silsila

jisse hamm sayad samjhe hi nhi

jo apna nhi hai

usse apna banay bethe kyu hai

dhyaan rakhna iss baat ka ye silsila humne khud khtm kiya

khuda ki kasam isse kahi tum na suru kar dena...........

or suru karo toh ye baat jraa apne jhen mai daal lena

ki jo vakt humne tumhe diya khafa betha vo hamse

ki jisse yuu rulaya tumne vo ab hisab bhi kya maange tumse

ki jo silsila ham yuu tumhaari intjaar karti hui ankhe dekhi nhi jaayegi

or sayad tum mera intjaar kabhi yu kar hi nhi paao

jese m tumhare palatne ka intjaar yu karti rhi...

ki lo khatm kar diya aaj ye silsila bhi.....

psychology, of mind